||[25 Oct 2006|05:47pm]
Once upon a time there was a nuclear family,
And we lived in a family time,
And we’d unite in a family way.
And off the ancient mountain,
They were splitting every nucleus.
They said ’don’t be alarmed,
Just don’t try this at home.’
And they were the mystery that made the world run
And we had the power, ’cause they were the sun
And we called them our heroes, and the future had come.
They said,’look at the light we’re giving you,
And the darkness we’re saving you from.’
Soon they were bringing it into our showroom,
And they’d unveil it with it’s title,
Bring your family, bring your family,
It’s the great unknown.
You can look, but you can’t fathom,
It’s the great unknown.
I’m no ordinary princess, I was born in the cold war,
And my team is the rockets.
Go team, it’s a dangerous time.
And I dream of the moon and building lunar clone colonies.
And I build my peace with strength, that’s the best weapon you’ve
Oh, I am the brainchild, I am the mortar,
With a plastic trophy and an eating disorder,
And vision as big as a great big wall,
And they tell me that I’ll move forward for the good of us all,
And the good of nuclear families all.
And they think I think I am important.
I know I never was, no I wasn’t.
No I never, and how could I be?
It’s the great unknown.
Now we’ve built it, now it’s ticking,
It’s the great unknown.
And I am your children, I am millions.
And I wanted to sell out, I wanted to try,
But you know the sky got too low, and the ocean got too high.
And I tried to take God into my own hands.
Am I too late? is it over?
Have I sacrificed my family to the great unknown?
There’s a war between my conscience and the great unknown.
So I walked out into the gamma fields
Out in mercury, nevada.
Where I stood in circle and that circle started to pray.
And the wind at the nuclear test sights floats the data at the radiation.
From the underground testing,
Cross the line, you’ll get arrested.
And we came from all over in a silent appeal
As the drill comes down like a presidential seal.
And we stand for the living, and we stand for the dead,
And we looked out to see your enemies,
And we see that you’re looking all at us instead.
And you think I am being disruptive?
But no I’m running home, I’m running,
’cause I’m trying to put the atom back together.
It’s the great unknown.
I’m just trying to put the atom back together.
It’s the great unknown.
||[16 Jun 2006|10:54am]
i don't want to lose who i was, or who i am. it scares me a lot but i think if i don't, i'll regret it, and no matter how this turns out at least i'll know i stepped away from what's comfortable.
||[09 Apr 2006|12:49am]
molly wanted me to write a livejournal entry and say hey from her.
||[02 Apr 2006|10:43pm]
and we can live in this beautiful house,
with a ivy lined bricks leading to a huge blue door
and pretend for eighteen years that nothing will hurt us, that nothing will effect us
blow your horn into the wind of this new tree lined street,
we're moving in, you said, we're going to grow up here.
||[23 Mar 2006|10:05pm]
WLt4+ (womens lightweight 4) 11am
JRWJV8+ (junior women's JV 8) 11:40am
the chance of either of my boats winning isn't great because the first race we're racing the OTHER greenlake lightweight boat who are the more experienced girls in the boat, and in the JV race we are a 3v boat and JV for crew is beastly. so yeah we'll see. COME.
||[19 Mar 2006|02:07pm]
god that modest yahoo song is so good...
last night was good. a group of us ate at typhoon, and walked in the FREEZING to the waterfront. the dance was in the aquarium which was pretty cool and i had a lot better of a time than winter ball, but i pretty much just walked around with clara and talked. we have some really cool kids at bush who i want to know better. kaylas was cool and then i spent the night at katies with clara.
im so excited about the trip. todd shook my hand last night for the first time we'd talked about it. and it's so weird because i know that when i come back i'll feel like a different person, so who does that make me now..??
k im abouts to go shopping with kate and find really cute local stores. wooomp!
||[07 Mar 2006|07:08pm]
2k test today. i started off so strong at 2:01 and then 2:03 and then the 1k mark came (ie, half way) and i basically just burned out. i honestly dont know if it's mental. the lactic acid in the legs and just the feeling of ahh...yeah...christine was screaming at me and when it was over grace brought up the idea of getting tested for anemia after i lay down with all of the lightweights, and then i just went and lay in the back of the car until it was safe for me to drive. this will give me something to work towards. i dont want to look at it like i have a good reason and i dont want to make up excuses. i might get tested for anemia just to be sure since apparently grace had this problem last year and now she's insanely strong, but i just need to step it up and work as hard as possible.
||[06 Mar 2006|11:55pm]
After i took my first nap in forever on Sunday, dad took me out for coffee, which for him is actually a muffin and a berry smoothie. he's having a hard time with me driving in the fatherly way, which he basically acknowledged. he didnt realize that with me driving he wouldnt see me nearly as much, and the other night he ended up calling at 12:30 after staying up waiting for me to tell him i was safe. it sort of makes me sad, almost like i've left him behind or something, and i realized it would be different but he really didnt know that me driving meant us seeing less of each other.
in the movie crash sandra bullock's character is talking on the phone to her friend and basically says that she woke up in the morning angry, and not because of what was going on, but because she wakes up angry every morning, and she doesn't know why.
...but im listening to "in the deep" so that might explain why im in the crash mode....
kell put all of his music onto my ipod so i am using ipod rip to upload 3620 songs.
i went to b&o with chris tonight to study but we talked the whole time. i really like that place.
2k test tomorrow. i might die but everybody has their time, it might as well be on an erg machine in the dungeon with eminem playing and screaming voices all around.
||[04 Mar 2006|07:45pm]
i'm at mollys house right now HOME ALONE...i just did some india research. :)
everything's moving so quickly. there's a lot of stress but at the same time there is none because i have everything i need. we saw a presentation on friday about aids and i realized that as much as i care, im not doing one single thing in the world to help these people - any people. sometimes i honestly think i should drop crew without even thinking about it and doing SOMETHING. i dont know.
everyones about to get back...jesse is such a cool kid.
||[20 Feb 2006|11:12pm]
Bought everyone in the pub a drink.
Swam with wild dolphins.
Climbed a mountain.
Taken a Ferrari for a test drive.
Been inside the Great Pyramid.
Held a tarantula.
Taken a candlelit bath with someone.
Said 'I love you' and meant it.
Hugged a tree.
Done a striptease.
Watched a lightning storm at sea.
Stayed up all night long and watch the sunrise.
Seen the Northern Lights.
Gone to a huge sports game.
Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
Grown and eaten your own vegetables.
Touched an iceberg.
Slept under the stars.
Changed a baby's diaper.
Taken a trip in a hot air balloon.
Watched a meteor shower.
Gotten drunk on champagne.
Given more than you can afford to charity.
Looked up at the night sky through a telescope.
Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment.
Had a food fight.
Bet on a winning horse.
Taken a sick day when you're not ill.
Asked out a stranger.
Had a snowball fight.
Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
Screamed as loudly as you possibly can.
Held a lamb.
Organized and planned a surprise party for a loved one.
Taken a midnight skinny dip.
Taken an ice cold shower.
Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar.
Seen a total eclipse.
Ridden a roller coaster.
Hit a home run.
Fit three weeks miraculously into three days.
Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking.
Adopted an accent for an entire day.
Visited the birthplace of your ancestors.
Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment.
Had two hard drives for your computer.
Visited all 50 states.
Loved your job for all accounts.
Taken care of someone who was really sick.
Had enough money to be truly satisfied.
Have amazing friends.
Danced with a stranger in a foreign country.
Watched wild whales.
Stolen a sign.
Backpacked in Europe.
Taken a road-trip.
Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice.
Midnight walk on the beach.
Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love.
In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them.
Bench pressed your own weight.
Milked a cow.
Alphabetized your cds.
Pretended to be a superhero.
Lounged around in bed all day.
Protested something you feel strongly against.
Kissed in the rain.
Played in the rain.
Gone to a drive-in theater.
Done something you should regret, but don't regret it.
Started a business.
Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog.
Dropped Windows in favor of something better.
Toured ancient sites.
Taken a martial arts class for like 7 years.
Swordfought for the honor of a woman.
Played a DVD for more than 6 hours straight.
Been in a movie.
Crashed a party.
Loved someone you shouldn't have.
Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy.
Started an office war.
Gone without food for 5 days.
Made cookies from scratch.
Won first prize in a costume contest.
Ridden a gondola in Venice.
Gotten a tattoo.
Rafted the Snake River.
Been on television news programs as an "expert".
Got flowers for no reason.
Made out in a public place.
Got so drunk you don't remember anything.
Been addicted to some form of illegal drug.
Performed on stage.
Drank an entire 6 pack by yourself.
Gone to Thailand.
Seen Siouxsie live.
Bought a house.
Been in a combat zone.
Buried one/both of your parents.
Shaved all of your hair off.
Been on a cruise ship.
Spoken more than one language fluently.
Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone.
Bounced a check.
Performed in theatre.
Read - and understood - your credit report.
Taken a bicycle tour in a foreign country.
Found out something significant that your ancestors did.
Called or written your Congress person.
Picked up and moved to another city to just start over.
Walked the Golden Gate Bridge.
Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking.
Had an abortion.
Had plastic surgery.
Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived.
Held someone while they were having a flashback.
Piloted an airplane.
Pet a stingray.
Broken someone's heart.
Helped an animal give birth.
Been fired or laid off from a job.
Won money on a T.V. game show.
Broken a bone.
Killed a human being.
Gone on an African photo safari.
Ridden on a motorcycle.
Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100km/h.
Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced.
Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol.
Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild.
Ridden a horse.
Had major surgery.
Ridden on a passenger train.
Had a snake as a pet.
Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon.
Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing.
Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours.
Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states.
Visited all 7 continents.
Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days.
Eaten kangaroo meat.
Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
Been a sperm or egg donor.
Had your picture in the newspaper.
Had 2 healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime.
Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about.
Gotten someone fired for their actions.
Gone back to school.
Changed your name.
Petted a cockroach.
Eaten fried green tomatoes.
Read The Iliad.
Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read a book by them.
Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, or cups because your apartment needed them.
Taught yourself an art from scratch.
Killed and prepared an animal for eating.
Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt.
Skipped all your school reunions.
Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language.
Been elected to public office.
Written your own computer language.
Thought to yourself that you're living your dream.
Had to put someone you love into hospice care.
Built your own PC from parts.
Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you.
Had a booth at a street fair.
Dyed your hair.
Been a DJ.
Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal.
Written your own role playing game.
||[13 Feb 2006|09:50pm]
sophie zelmani - always you
LICENCE ON THURSDAY DURING LUNCH!
||[08 Feb 2006|07:14pm]
wish i knew what it was like for you
||[07 Feb 2006|09:44pm]
last weekend i totally jumped to conclusions and assumed a lot that wasn't true. i hate the idea of being two faced and i really honestly can say i appreciate what he does and was wrong about a lot. it'll be a good season.
||[06 Feb 2006|09:39pm]
"your life is just a choice...always love"
ive been writing some private entries but i feel like i dont write in here anymore really....
i have so much to say but i dont feel like writing it down
||[02 Feb 2006|08:23pm]
licence in 14 days...im not even excited for the BIRTHDAY, just the driving.
the laramie project was really good. i felt really good about the bush school, just SO comfortable there in my sweats and everybody was just...yeah...i know ive missed out on a lot by being in private school but i love it.
||[01 Feb 2006|10:23pm]
2k test today 85% percent pressure. steve surprised me and told me to pull two seconds faster than what i was expecting. ive never actually felt...ahhh i cant even describe it, i had trouble walking/seeing/breathing afterwards, and that wasnt nearly as bad as it might get this season. friday we have basically a full out test...i dont even know how i'm going to live through that. molly is here right now in my bed and we've decided that all rowers will either die or get seriously grey/bald by a young age. the stress! the pain! the anxiety!
||[31 Jan 2006|09:05pm]
one thing about bush school that is a little hard is when you walk by somebody you used to be so close to or laugh so much with and because we're no longer in middle school or things have changed, we're now different people...it's a weird concept